Hello darkness, my old friend.

It has been an awfully long time.

Since i stopped blogging on this account, i have become increasingly emotionally reclusive, and i feel that that has caused my blogging ability to decrease by a great margin. A lot of things have happened since the last time i updated - things that have strained me emotionally and mentally and things that have caused me to be very wary of ever opening myself up that wide to other people. Looking back at my older posts, i noticed that i did write a paragraph or two here and there hinting at these incidents and i don't intend to ever bring them out to light ever again but i have to say that everything that has happened to me in the past year or so has shattered me and caused me to rebuild and retain certain parts of myself and as a result, i've changed into a different person. Some people say i've changed for the better, some people say i've changed for the worst. It doesn't matter because i've kept moving forward and i'm on a new journey now. An actual journey of self discovery, different but just as painful as the previous one.

Blogging about my problems and thoughts, though discreetly, has always been a sort of escape for me. I've never ever been one to talk to people directly when i am hurting and i remember when i used to frequently blog here, the feeling of weightlessness that i got after i pressed "Publish Post" was always relieving.

I think it's time i let myself feel that light again.